two thousand and TEN.

currently listening to the blasting music from my ipod,these deafening tunes seem to help retain the calm that i seek so much.

a lot has been going on in me as we bid goodbye to this year,beckoning the next with warm hearts in hope of bigger and better things to come.

my emotions have been in quite a wreck,so many things that im trying to sort out,i dont understand them, so much that im not even able to put them

to words that makes things a whole lot simpler.

maybe its all because of the pressure of a new year, a new beginning? so much things that i wish i could change,

so many resolutions to be fulfilled. and yet, i feel like im slowly sinking as low as to be a complete and utter hypocrite,

may be not to myself, but to others.

in the previous post ive moaned and bitched on and on about the pressure if a so called friendly image.

i honestly feel that smiling itself is a burden when not done from the heart, but yeah, i guess i unwillingly have to admit to the fact that

sooner or later change is in due. i mean, who would want a sourpuss for an employee right?

still taking my sweet time with the whole thing, and it would be oh so lovely if some of you who may read this could lend a hand, tips and ideas in helping

me cope with this simple yet somehow complicated matter.basically. i need  of motivation to get through next year.LOTS

I wanna change,so badly i do. For my sake, and for others, i wanna learn to smile, i wanna learn to care, to let go, to know when to stop,

and oh yeah, to actually take advice in a positive perspective *is a very negative person ya know. narrow minded too at times.*

im still naive, still learning , still searching for the right thing to do,how to live my life.

my list of resolutions keep growing as i can name so many of my flaws at the top of my head.

hoping to fulfill them and keep making new ones as they are completed,

heres to a good year for all of you out there.

HAPPY 2010 everyone!